Well, I’m more confused than ever about the future. Now I might have another option? Its great to be given choices and feel wanted/ appreciated in the company in multiple departments… I just wish any of them were doing what I want to be doing. I also wish so much didn’t seem uncertain. I have to see this as positive. I have to stop letting it get to me. I have to make a decision.
“Well, I’m an optimist but only in a perfect world.
I think I’m too stained with all the negativity
from all the people in my way.
Would you believe in my songs if I gave them all to you?
I can’t find the strength in my voice to call you back
and say that everything is bad without you and I am lost again,
God believe I’m lost again.”—the dangerous summer